Rihanna Covers 'Marie Claire UK' December 2010
Here’s what the 22-year-old Loud singer had to share about life after the Chris Brown incident:
Are you a different person now? I repeat. “Yes,” she answers with surety. “I was very lost. I have to say I felt really confused. It was really strange because…” Her eyes begin to well up then she scolds herself for being upset. “Aaagh!” she exclaims out loud. “I hate talking about it but it was really crazy because I felt so out of touch with myself and when that happens…”
She’s struggling through the sentence but is determined to continue. “It’s scary because nothing you say or do feels like it’s you. You just lose touch of everything that you love and everything that you would normally do; how you would dress or how you would say something… It just feels like it’s not coming from you. It’s just this one empty vase. I felt like an empty vessel.” Tears fall down her face but she tells me it’s alright. “I’m just… I feel like… I smile for real this time.
“Eventually, I remember waking up one day and I knew I was over it. One day. I remember I was in New York at the Trump Hotel and I woke up and I just knew I was over it.”