Colton Haynes Opens Up About His Anxiety Before Coming Out
Colton Haynes is totally swoon-worthy on the September 2016 cover of Out magazine, on newsstands August 30.
Here’s what the 28-year-old former Arrow actor had to share with the mag:
On suffering from anxiety while hiding his sexual orientation: “I feel really bad that I had to lie for so long. But I was told that was the only way I was going to be successful. When you’re young in this industry, people take advantage of you, and they literally tell you that your dreams are going to come true. If you believe that, you’ll do anything. And you do believe it, especially if you’re from Kansas.”
On blaming himself for his father’s suicide: “I’m the last person in the world who would say, ‘Oh, my dad – pity me.’ But I was told that my dad killed himself because he found out I was gay. So, of course, I lost it and was like, ‘How could you say something like that?’ And no one will ever really know the truth. But my brother and my mom went to pick up my dad’s stuff, and the only picture on his fridge was my eighth-grade graduation picture. So I was just like, f**k.”
On learning gay actor Noah Galvin slamming his coming out confession: “When I came out, Noah tweeted, ‘Welcome to the family,’ and ‘So proud of you.’ I have the tweets saved on my phone. Then, all of a sudden, I’m the worst, I’m a terrible person, and I’m a shame of the gay community. I think just having enough nerve and guts to come out in any way is a lot. It was really an emotional thing for me. And for that to be discredited by someone who has never met me was upsetting. He has no idea what I’ve been through. And I can’t sit here and have a conversation about Noah because I don’t know him either.”
On his love life: “I haven’t had sex in – I couldn’t tell you how long. I wish I had more to tell you, but it just doesn’t happen.”
For more from Colton, visit Out.com.