Hayley Williams Talks About That Time She Quit Paramore

Hayley Williams looks pretty in patterns on the cover of The Fader.

Here’s what the 28-year-old Paramore singer had to share with the mag:

On dealing with depression: “Man, I don’t know. I don’t feel as hopeful as I did as a teenager…For the first time in my life, there wasn’t a pinhole of light at the end of the tunnel. I thought, I just wish everything would stop. It wasn’t in the sense of, I’m going to take my life. It was just hopelessness. Like, What’s the point? I don’t think I understood how dangerous hopelessness is. Everything hurts.”

On her brief departure from Paramore in 2015: “I just was done. I thought, ‘There’s gotta be something else that I’m good at in my life. Maybe it’s time for me to go find that.”

On the possibility of mainstream solo stardom: “It’s just not what I want. I don’t know if I would be able to face thousands of people if I couldn’t look to my left and my right and behind me and realize that I’m surrounded by people who know exactly who I am.”

For more on Hayley, visit TheFader.com.