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Gisele Bundchen Reveals Past Suicidal Thoughts in New Memoir

Gisele Bundchen Reveals Past Suicidal Thoughts in New Memoir

Gisele Bunchen is bravely opening up about dealing with anxiety throughout her successful modeling career, and thinking suicidal thoughts.

“I had a wonderful position in my career, I was very close to my family, and I always considered myself a positive person, so I was really beating myself up. Like, ‘Why should I be feeling this?’ I felt like I wasn’t allowed to feel bad,” the 38-year-old supermodel wrote in her new memoir, “Lessons: My Path to a Meaningful Life,” in this preview from People.

Gisele wrote about how in 2003, she had her first panic attack after taking a bumpy ride on an airplane.

“But I felt powerless. Your world becomes smaller and smaller, and you can’t breathe, which is the worst feeling I’ve ever had,” Gisele continued. “I actually had the feeling of, ‘If I just jump off my roof, this is going to end, and I never have to worry about this feeling of my world closing in.’”

After being prescribed Xanax, Gisele explained what happened, “The thought of being dependent on something felt, in my mind, even worse, because I was like, ‘What if I lose that [pill]? Then what? Am I going to die?’ The only thing I knew was, I needed help.”

“I had been smoking cigarettes, drinking a bottle of wine and three mocha frappacinos every day, and I gave up everything in one day. I thought, if this stuff is in any way the cause of this pain in my life, it’s gotta go,” Gisele said of making lifestyle changes.

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  • Casey C

    yeah, i totally believe she was drinking a bottle of wine and three frappucinos a day…sure, Giselle. Totally believe you.

  • mahbelle

    i’m so sick of famous rich people making up these tales of woe. the women are the worse. apparently, they’ve all been sexually assaulted, bullied, had an eating disorder, drank/drugged too much blah blah blah

  • Domino

    Most women have been sexually assaulted at one time if not several and its great that its finally being discussed. You’re bullying them right now with your jealous and dismissive comments. Maybe just work on yourself and don’t troll the internet for people to be angry at.

  • mahbelle

    Is that so? I know plenty of women who haven’t been sexually assaulted. but you are probably one of those idiots who think OMG HE GRABBED MY BUTT is assault. take your nonsense elsewhere. remember you don’t REALLY know the people who comment anonymously on the internet.

  • Stoni

    Jumping on the banwagon, that’s all this is.

  • Stoni

    And you are bullying “mahbelle” so check yourself before you pass judgment.