Joaquin Phoenix Reveals How He Truly Felt Winning His Oscar in 2020

Joaquin Phoenix is opening up about his iconic win at the 2020 Oscars, where he picked up Best Leading Actor for his role as Joker in the film of the same name.

In his speech, he spoke passionately about animal activism and social justice and later that same night, went out to save a cow from slaughter.

Click inside to read how Joaquin really felt about his win…

Speaking with The Sunday Times, Joaquin admitted he was actually terrified of winning, and even more, giving a speech.

“I’ll be honest with you here,” he shared. “I did not want to get up anywhere and do anything. I was not excited about the opportunity. It’s just not who I am. I was full of fear.”

Joaquin added that he was “in that situation and there was a part of me that just wanted to say, ‘Thanks so much, great, goodnight.’ But I felt like I had to…If I’m up here, I can’t just thank my mom.”

In the same interview, Joaquin made some rare comments about how he will raise his son, River, with fiancée, Rooney Mara.