Dog the Bounty Hunter is getting incredibly candid about his immediate thoughts following the death of his wife, Beth Chapman.
The 66-year-old star of Dog’s Most Wanted opened up about contemplating suicide on the finale of the show on Wednesday (November 6).
“I’ve only been alone as I showered and I had to run out without a towel, because I can’t be alone right now. That’s when I start thinking about things. And I lay down to take a nap, and I reached over to touch something, and it was the freaking dog. I don’t realize yet psychologically that she’s gone gone and I’ll never, ever see her. I don’t realize that,” he said during the final episode.
“I just hope that I don’t live very much longer without her, because now she made the first step, she’s through the gate. She paved a way for me. I want to take a g–d-n pain pill so bad. I feel like if I did something to myself right now and passed away suicidal and I got to heaven and was like, ‘Hi honey,’ and would she go, ‘You dumb–s, why would you do that?’ Or would she go, ‘Wow, you’re here.’ I’ll be like ‘Of course I’m here. You left me. I’m here.’ So, am I obligated to do that?”
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Our thoughts are with Beth Chapman‘s loved ones at this difficult time.