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Holly Madison Reveals Details About 'Traumatic' First Time Having Sex With Hugh Hefner

Holly Madison Reveals Details About 'Traumatic' First Time Having Sex With Hugh Hefner

Holly Madison is discussing sex with Hugh Hefner.

The 41-year-old Girls Next Door alum, who dated the late Playboy founder from 2001 to 2008, spoke out on the Power: Hugh Hefner podcast.

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“I was wasted,” she explained, calling the experience “traumatic.”

“He was literally pushed on top of me. And after it happened, I was just mortified and embarrassed, and it had way more of an emotional impact on me than I thought it would,” she continued.

“I wasn’t necessarily expecting to have sex that night. I thought it would be more of a first date — even though, obviously, it’s not a very traditional first date…I thought it would be more the type of thing where I saw what happened, saw what was going on. If I wasn’t comfortable with it, I wouldn’t have to do anything and I could make my decision on whether I wanted to come back for date No. 2 or not.”

She added that what “horrified” her was that all of the other ladies knew.

“I thought he was really smart, I really looked up to him, so I liked him, and it wasn’t that the idea of possibly having sex with him repelled me so much — I know that’s not relatable to a lot of people because they’re like, ‘Oh, he’s an old man, gross,’” she said.

“It was more the group aspect that was really out of my comfort zone and just the feeling of ‘Wow, OK, that happened. Everybody knows it happened…I kind of all of a sudden felt like everybody was going to know about me, and I was horrified by it.”

She also said she felt pressured to stay at the Playboy Mansion.

“I felt like, ‘There’s no taking that back, so I might as well get what I came for…I felt like by moving myself in and getting what I wanted from the situation, that was demanding respect in a way.”

There’s also some ongoing drama between someone else who lived at the Playboy Mansion.

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