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Nick Cannon Says He Has 'Heavy Guilt' for Not Spending Enough Time with Late Son Zen

Nick Cannon Says He Has 'Heavy Guilt' for Not Spending Enough Time with Late Son Zen

Nick Cannon is opening up about life after the death of his youngest son, Zen.

Baby Zen – who the 41-year-old talk show host shared with Alyssa Scott – was born in June 2021 and died five months later in December after being diagnosed with a brain tumor.

On the latest episode of his daytime talk show, The Nick Cannon Show, on Wednesday (February 16), Nick opened up about going to therapy to deal with his “heavy guilt.”

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“I am a work in progress and therapy has been an important tool in helping learn and grow and navigate through my unconventional personal life,” Nick said on the show, before sharing a clip from his therapy session with Dr. Laura Berman.

“One thing that keeps me up at night, there’s this heavy, heavy guilt with the fact that I didn’t get to spend time like I really wanted to with Zen,” Nick shared with the therapist. “That I have other children even in a similar age that I was like, ‘OK, I’m guilty that I’m not there every day. I’m guilty that the mothers of my children yearn for more and I can only give so much.’”

“I walk around with a backpack full of guilt,” he continued. “But at least I know the harder that I work, then it makes the guilt easier to deal with.”

Along with Zen, Nick shares 10-year-old twins – son Moroccan and daughter Monroe – with ex-wife Mariah Carey, 4-year-old son Golden and 13-month-old daughter Powerful Queen with Brittany Bell, and 7-month-old twin boys – Zion and Zillion – with Abby De La Rosa. He also just announced he’s expecting his eighth child, a boy, with Brie Tiesi.

Later in his therapy session, Nick talked about his relationships with the five mothers of his children, adding that he and Mariah “co-parent very well.

“She and I, we’re really great friends and she’s kind of taught me so much,” Nick shared.

While he’s not romantically involved with Mariah anymore, Nick said that he’s still intimate with the other mothers of his children.

“I think they have to [know that]. I think the world knows,” Nick explained. “I think that’s what I struggle with because clearly if I care for someone, if I have a child with someone, there has been intimacy. And there probably will continue to be intimacy because there’s true, authentic love there.”

Nick went on to admit that he’s struggled with co-parenting because he’s intimate with the women.

“And it’s easy to say, ‘Look, let’s just focus on our child or children,’ and then what ends up happening…then one good night at Nobu and the sake gets going…that chemistry,” Nick said, adding, “some of the women that I’m involved with deal with it better than others. I think they’re all secure in themselves to even have to deal with a person like me.”

If you missed it, Nick released a new song, and it’s all about how much he misses Mariah.

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