Jennifer Lopez to 'InStyle': I Don't Love Being Alone

Jennifer Lopez rocks a super colorful dress on the cover of InStyle‘s April 2014 issue, on newsstands March 14.

Here is what the 44-year-old entertainer had to share with the mag:

On love and being alone: “Look, I don’t love being alone. I don’t. I can’t beat myself up for that. What I have to do is figure out why I don’t like it. Why am I not OK being alone? And can I ever be OK facing that? In the past, love for me has always meant forever, and sure, you still nurse some of those fantasies, but I don’t try to force it anymore. I hung on to my fairy-tale ideals for a long time. But where I am now, what I’ve been through, there are no rules. There are just lots of ways it can turn out instead of just one. There are so many different kinds of happiness, not just the one you learned about when you were five years old.”

On who she is really is: “It’s funny when people say ‘Jenny from the block isn’t real’ or ‘You’ve already done that.’ I keep doing it because that’s who I am. I love where I grew up and it’s such a part of who I am.”

On aging in Hollywood: “The turning point was a couple years ago, when the September issue of women’s magazines had cover girls that were all over 40 – Jennifer Aniston, Halle Berry, Sandra Bullock, Julia Roberts, me. It was hard not to be happy. That says something about our society. People who used to believe their life – or at least their life as a performer – was over at 28 or some ungodly age! God, when I think of myself back then, I had no idea who I was. I think I’m barely getting that under control now.”

FYI: Jennifer is wearing a Chanel swimsuit and skirt with H. Stern jewelry.

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