Chrissy Metz Details Physical Abuse, Forced Weigh Ins as a Child

Chrissy Metz is opening up about horrifying abuse she endured at the hands of her stepfather, Trigger, when she was a child.

“My body seemed to offend him, but he couldn’t help but stare, especially when I was eating. He joked about putting a lock on the refrigerator. We had lived with a lack of food for so long that when it was there, I felt like I had to eat it before it disappeared. Food was my only happiness,” Chrissy wrote in her new memoir, “This Is Me,” (via People).

“I don’t remember why Trigger hit me the first time. He never punched my face. Just my body, the thing that offended him so much. He shoved me, slapped me, punched my arm. He would hit me if he thought I looked at him wrong. I remember being on the kitchen floor after he knocked me over, and I was begging to know what I did. He just shoved me hard with his foot,” Chrissy continued. “When I was fourteen, Trigger began weighing me. He’d get the scale from the bathroom and clang it hard on the kitchen floor. ‘Well, get on the damn thing!’ Trigger would yell. ‘This is what you need to know.’”

However, Chrissy wrote that she does have a relationship with Trigger now.

“We have a relationship now,” she added. “I do love him and I do care about him.”