Beyonce Gives Rare Interview, Gets Candid About Past Miscarriages & Tells Everyone to Get Off Her Ovaries

Beyonce rarely gives interviews, but she gave a shockingly candid one in Elle magazine’s January 2020 issue, on newsstands December 17.

Here’s what the superstar entertainer had to share…

On being passed over for major awards over the years: “I began to search for deeper meaning when life began to teach me lessons I didn’t know I needed. Success looks different to me now. I learned that all pain and loss is in fact a gift. Having miscarriages taught me that I had to mother myself before I could be a mother to someone else. Then I had Blue, and the quest for my purpose became so much deeper. I died and was reborn in my relationship, and the quest for self became even stronger. It’s difficult for me to go backwards. Being “number one” was no longer my priority. My true win is creating art and a legacy that will live far beyond me. That’s fulfilling.”

On her go-to karaoke song: “‘Escape (The Piña Colada Song)’ and ‘Hotel California’ (the guitar solo is my jam)!!”

On people constantly commenting on her appearance and weight: “If someone told me 15 years ago that my body would go through so many changes and fluctuations, and that I would feel more womanly and secure with my curves, I would not have believed them. But children and maturity have taught me to value myself beyond my physical appearance and really understand that I am more than enough no matter what stage I’m at in life. Giving zero f—s is the most liberating place to be. Also knowing true beauty is something you cannot see. I wish more people focused on discovering the beauty within themselves rather than critiquing other folks’ grills.”

On the question she hates to answer: “Are you pregnant? Get off my ovaries!”

On what stresses her out: “I think the most stressful thing for me is balancing work and life. Making sure I am present for my kids—dropping Blue off at school, taking Rumi and Sir to their activities, making time for date nights with my husband, and being home in time to have dinner with my family—all while running a company can be challenging. Juggling all of those roles can be stressful, but I think that’s life for any working mom.”

For more from Beyonce, visit Elle.com.