America Ferrera Explains the Devastating Reason She Couldn't 'Enjoy' Her Emmy Win

America Ferrera won the Emmy Award for Outstanding Lead Actress in a Comedy Series back in 2007 for her work in Ugly Betty, but she says wasn’t able to enjoy the night.

It was a historic win for America as she was the first Latina woman to win the category.

America is now opening up about the moment in an interview on the Armchair Expert podcast.

“When I won the Emmy, I can’t bring myself to watch that because the only thing I remember about being on that stage, accepting that Emmy, was the feeling that no one in the room thought I deserved it,” she said (via ET Canada). “And that’s a shame.”

“[I was thinking] ‘She doesn’t really deserve that. What is she really doing in that role? That role is not interesting enough, it’s not dark enough, it’s not edgy enough.’ You know, all of the bullsh–t,” America added. “Which doesn’t enter your mind on its own. There were people in my life perpetuating those narratives and making me feel like I hadn’t earned this moment. When I look back at that time, my heart aches for that 22-year-old girl, who didn’t get to really enjoy those moments.”

Ugly Betty lasted for four seasons and you can stream the show now on Hulu!

In other news for America, something pretty incredible happened for her this past week.