Sophia Bush Opens Up About the Death of Dan Fredinburg: 'It Shattered Me'

Sophia Bush goes glam on the cover of Health magazine’s September 2015 issue, on newsstands August 14.

Here’s what the 33-year-old actress had to share with the mag:

On living life since her ex Dan Fredinburg passed away: “Losing one of my best friends a few months ago [Google executive Dan Fredinburg] shattered me. There were days I felt like my body had been turned inside out. I felt like my heart was on the outside of my body and everyone who came near me was stabbing me. And the crazy thing is that since Dan died, the lessons have come like Mack trucks. There is no next time. There is no excuse to wait a day to do what you want to do and to change the way that you want to change.”

On feeling pressure to look good: “I think it’s hard for everyone…. We are so conditioned as women to hate on ourselves all the time, but look at what we can do…. This is me, whether I like it or not. I will never be as tall as Gisele. I will never have bone structure like Hilary Rhoda. I will never have Penélope Cruz’s hair. So who cares?”

On her biggest fear: “The word enough is a monster for me. I don’t know how anyone ever feels that they are enough: successful enough, smart enough, pretty enough, healthy enough. I got so scared the first time I decided to say, ‘I am terrified of not being enough.’ And what came back tenfold�”women who identify, women who sympathize and women who experience all of that�”was mind-boggling to me. We are so in this together. And that helps. A friend said to me, ‘Let it be enough, whatever you did today. You went on a two-mile run and you didn’t do a circuit-training workout? Who cares? Let it be enough.’”

For more from Sophia, visit Health.com.