David Archuleta Talks About His Relationship With His Faith & Three Failed Engagements With Women One Year After Coming Out

David Archuleta is opening up about his faith after coming out as a part of the LGBTQ+ community a year ago.

The 31-year-old American Idol alum grew up as a practicing Mormon. However, he revealed that he decided to “take a break from religion” during an interview with People.

He shared more insight into his “very complicated” relationship with the church in the interview.

Click inside to find out what David Archuleta had to say…

David revealed that he contemplated ending his life while trying to balance his religion and sexuality.

“You just start feeling like, ‘Oh, there’s probably no point for me to live. I probably would be better off not living anyway. God would probably forgive me if I ended my life because it’s better than what I could become, which is if I’m gay or LGBT of any sorts, I’m going to be in big trouble spiritually,’” he said.

“I tried to hide from this all my life, and I can’t. I just had to take a step away,” David added. “I did not want to weigh out whether it was better for me to live and exist, or if it was better for me not to exist.”

That was not an easy decision for him. “It hurts me because my religion was everything for me. But you get to a point where you realize there are some things not right here,” he said. “I need to just live my life, because I already know I’m okay how I am.”

He shared a realization that came to him while he was praying about his sexuality.

“It got to a point where I was praying, like, ‘God, if you are really there, please take this away from me because I don’t know what else to do,’” he explained. “And finally, there was just a moment where my understanding of God said, ‘You need to stop asking me this. You’re not supposed to change yourself because this is how you are. You are created to be this way.’”

David also spoke about three failed engagements to women, including one that ended shortly before he came out as queer.

“No matter how hard I tried to marry a girl, it wasn’t right. And if you talk to my exes, they’ll tell you it was rough,” he said.

David has previously spoken about how God helped him come out publicly. He also spoke about how he had to “learn to love” himself.