15 Surprising Things We Learned About Prince Harry & Meghan Markle in His New Docu-Series

3. Harry told devastating details from the night Meghan almost killed herself

Meghan previously opened up to Oprah about the night she almost killed herself while speaking to her in the CBS interview that aired back in March. She was having suicidal thoughts due to the pressure she was facing from the media and the constant bullying she was victim to for years.

In the new docu-series, Harry opened up to her about why Meghan decided not to act on her thoughts.

Meghan told Harry that she was contemplating killing herself on the night of January 16, 2019, right before they were set to leave for an event at Royal Albert Hall. She previously spoke to Oprah about the upsetting photo she saw of herself after the event happened.

At the time, Meghan was pregnant with the couple’s son Archie.

“The thing that stopped her from seeing it through was how unfair it would be on me after everything that had happened to my mum and to now be put in a position of losing another woman in my life, with a baby inside of her, our baby,” Harry said. “The scariest thing for her was her clarity of thought. She hadn’t ‘lost it.’ She wasn’t crazy. She wasn’t self-medicating, be it through pills or through alcohol. She was absolutely sober. She was completely sane. Yet in the quiet of night, these thoughts woke her up.”

“I’m somewhat ashamed of the way that I dealt with it,” Harry continued. “And of course, because of the system that we were in and the responsibilities and the duties that we had, we had a quick cuddle, and then we had to get changed and had to jump in a convoy with a police escort and drive to the Royal Albert Hall for a charity event and then step out into a wall of cameras and pretend as though everything’s OK. There wasn’t an option to say, ‘You know what? Tonight we’re not going to go. Because just imagine the stories that come from that.”

Harry talked about what happened while they were at the event at Royal Albert Hall.

“While my wife and I were in those chairs, gripping each other’s hand, the moment the lights go down, Meghan starts crying,” he said. “I’m feeling sorry for her, but I’m also really angry with myself that we’re stuck in this situation. I was ashamed that it got this bad. I was ashamed to go to my family. Because to be honest with you, like a lot of other people my age could probably relate to, I know that I’m not gonna get from my family what I need.”