Caitlyn Jenner made an upsetting reveal during an appearance on HBO’s Any Given Wednesday on Wednesday (August 3).
The 66-year-old reality star discussed the photos that turned up in 2014 of her newly shaved adam’s apple during her transition.
“I could not sleep that night. I’m up at 3 a.m. walking up and down my hallway, thinking, Damn, all this s–t is going to come out tomorrow and it’s going to be horrible. And I said, ‘You know what? Easy way. Go in the other room. You got a gun. Let’s just end it right here,’” Caitlyn said. “That’s, like, the easy way out. No more pain, no more nothing. I don’t have to deal with the tabloids any longer. I don’t have to deal with any of this. And that was probably the lowest I’ve ever gotten.”
“Wasn’t that, like, the stupidest thing you’ve ever done? I thought, What a terrible way to end your life’s story! I don’t want my story to end that way, on a negative note. That was the beginning of me turning my thinking around to say, ‘OK, I think I can do this.’” Caitlyn continued.
“Going through this, I have renewed my excitement for life,” Caitlyn added. “My life today is so interesting, so simple. It really is so simple.”