Alan Cumming Reveals He Was Suicidal Before Landing His Role in 'Goldeneye'

Alan Cumming is getting candid about his mental health.

During an appearance on CBS Mornings on Tuesday (October 26), the 56-year-old actor discussed his new memoir Baggage: Tales from a Fully Packed Life.

In the interview, he opened up about the difficulties he faced while navigating his divorce and shared that one of his “darkest moments” was the day he auditioned for the 1995 James Bond film Goldeneye.

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“It was one of the worst days of my life actually. I felt really, really, really low. I just now think, ‘Oh you poor little thing, you could’ve said I am feeling suicidal today,’” he said.

Alan said that after he received the call letting him know he had landed the role as Boris Grishenko, his life changed.

“That’s something I realized when I was writing, like, oh my God, Hollywood saved me,” he explained. “I have this sort of mantra, which is ‘Cancel, continue.’ When something bad happens I think, okay that happened, we can’t change that, let’s move on.”

The actor’s new book is a follow-up to 2014′s Not My Father’s Son and recounts the “abuse” he suffered from his father, as well as how it impacted his time in Hollywood.

“When I was 28, I suddenly remembered all this stuff from my childhood,” he said. “It’s still with me, I still get triggered by things. And we all have baggage, we all have trauma.”

Watch Alan‘s full interview down below.

Earlier this year, he revealed that he told the producers of Harry Potter to “f–k off” for this reason…